With all this talk about posturing myself I figured I may as well get down to it.
These past few days, a substantial amount of my time has been spent in prayer and listening to what the Lord speaks to me in regards to myself and those I've been praying for.
There are a few people who God has really placed in me to pray for (some are more difficult than others) and I am usually obediant when it comes to getting down to it. The hard part comes when the Lord tells me to speak what I've been hearing to the person. Questions begin to arise - will I speak the right words? will the words come across as loving and not harsh(as I am sometimes taken as)? will they be received by the person well? So many questions!
All of this tends to cause some inner turmoil within my soul. When I start asking the above mentioned questions, I also start questioning my own hearing and listening skills. Which in the end leads me to question God and if he's been telling me the right things(duh!).
Over all I am generally an obediant person when it comes to following the Lord's instructions(I think, anyway. If I'm not and you know it, hold me to it!). After getting over the nerves that come along with having to speak out to people, it usually works out well and I feel the joy of the Lord. However, there are times, which I have been experiencing lately, when I am obediant and know straight off that my words have not been received well. Or I know before hand that they will not go down well. This is where my biggest struggle of late is.
I have been encouraged recently to speak out in the Lord and not be afraid to do so. When I do to certain people, the Lords words fall on deaf ears. Causing me to become flustered and frustrated. Impatient that the word that God has given me to speak are not listened to. Really makes me think about if I'm hearing correctly. Should I be speaking out if those who are meant to listen won't - ever? I'm beginning to wonder. It also often leads to frustration and annoyance with certain people, making it harder for me to 1 Corinthians 13 love them! We prayed that this morning in Pray the Bible, so I know its something I need to work on.
This is not the first time I've felt this way - just the first time I'm speaking openly about it.
Where am I with all this now? To be honest, I don't really know. I'm still questioning and know that more time in prayer is definitely needed. Just getting my thoughts out there so that maybe it would become a little clearer....just maybe.
Blessings.
2 days ago
2 comments:
i have the same problem. God gives me words to speak out and when i do they usually aren't received well. i don't understand why God would give a word He know ain't going to be received well.
but remember Isaiah 55:11 (?) about ods word not returning to Him void, but it accomplishes what he has sent it to do. wether or not we see the fruit of the word isn't the important part.
keep speaking it out. be bold. be strong and courageous. God knows what He is doing.
be encouraged sister. i'm going throught the same struggle. let's pray for eachother.
RoRo
Jeremiah constantly pleaded with nations to turn to YHWH and they ignored him.
There was a prophet whose word was tested by an older prophet that led to his death...remember the story? He was directed to a place to share a word, was not to eat or drink in that place, and was supposed to leave a different way than he came. An older prophet told him God had said it was okay for the younger one to eat with him, and sent him on his way, and he was killed by a lion. The young man's life was important, but God's word was more important. His death showed that his words were true. The older prophet just learned that ahead of time.....!
my point is that you know in your soul whether or not you have been obedient to the LORD, and in the end, that is what matters. Don't expect everyone to jump up and down when you tell them words God has given you, especially when they have to do with correction or discipline...maybe continue to pray about how you should deliver the word, or whether it needs to be spoken out. (Some prophets hid their revelation to kings in parables and pictures...that way they came upon the truth in their own time because it was easier to digest that way.)
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