confirmation

I love confirmation! Seriously. When the moments come from God and I just know that its His confirmation for me - Amazing! What an amazing feeling.

This weekend I experienced confirmation.

For much of this summer I have felt torn(see - May Archives). Torn as to where I really should be next year. You see, as of May when I left Vancouver, my plan was to go back to Vancouver for at least one more year. However, when I got to Bangor, the opportunity arose for me to be able to head back there after the War College. Torn. I was torn.

When I went to God in prayer, he revealed to me that the decision was mine to make. Come on!! It could not get any harder than that. I continued to pray and weigh in everything going on in places and what I would be doing in each.
About this same time, I was reminded by a good friend of the committment that I had already made to TWC for next year and of how my heart was really in TWC (I am thankful for good friends who give reminders). I have never been a fan of broken committements.
But back to the confirmation! Even though I was reminded of my committement, I was still being torn inside my head.
Skip ahead to the day I left to come to Toronto. I woke up singing a switchfoot song and was a little puzzled by that. Later that I day I was asked if it was maybe God trying to tell me something. I couldn't figure it out though.
Then this weekend I decided to attend The Salvation Army's Roots conference. Since I was in Toronto and near there, it all worked out. Friday night the guest spoke about 'destruction to renewal' and it made a lot of sense to me. I feel as though I've come out of a place of destruction, where I wasn't all that happy and wasn't really living the life that I had been called by God to live - and now, this year, being in Vancouver, I have experienced renewal. I was feeling confirmation.
I debated going back up there on Saturday and just decided that if I woke up in time to go, I would. Of course God wanted me there, so I woke with plenty of time. Drove up to the camp and went to the Bible teaching session(taught by the parents of one of my roommates in Van). They taught on John 21 and spoke about persevering through despair. How God knows our names and he is more than enough. Yet more confirmation.
After this teaching I went to a small group session on 'Satyagraha Salvationism.' I could go deeply into this, but I won't...maybe another day. However, during this session, with the converstaion that happened in that room, I had my final confirmation.
What's the point to all this banter of mine.
Its this:
"Injustices exist in many places; you have to decide which ones God is calling you to stand againt; you have to decide if you are willing to face the consequences." Major Richard Munn

I didn't need anymore than that. Although God was allowing me to choose(and I believe would have been happy with either choice I made), he was also showing me where my heart lies. What he has called me to stand against(and help others to stand against). And that my friends, is in Vancouver.

PTL for confirmation!

Blessings.