time...

Seems to be flying by. I have surprisingly been home for almost a week and it feels like I barely left. How easy it is to get back into old ways, old habits-bad habits. I've done that already. I've become lazy, complacent, concerned more for my physical and emotional self than my spiritual self - and now I'm feeling the effects of that.
It was mentioned to us before leaving Vancouver that we should find someone to be accountable to and to hold us accountable over this break(all the time really, but especially this break). I didn't do that. I felt(as usual) that I could do it all on my own. Guess what?? Once again I was wrong. I cannot live in this world without a continual relationship with God, and help to succeed in that is going to have to come from the christian community around me. I have good people around me...
Was I afraid? Probably. I do not deal with rejection well, and the thought of having someone tell me that they don't want to do this with me would probably hurt my feelings a lot. Insecurity has a lot to do with it.
On the plus side, I was in contact with a good friend yesterday about how we could help each other out for the remainder of the break and possibly into the new year. I'm just waiting for a response.
Now its time for me to stop being lazy and get to it. The enemy will not win this battle over me.

Blessings.