addiction

when you think of addiction, what comes to mind?

drugs, alcohol...anything else? what about self-addiction? food? i've spent time amongst those who are addicted to various things, and have made some friendships with those who have won the battle, are still battling, and even those who lost. how much use was i to them when i wasn't working on my own addiction?

i got to thinking about addiction at 3am this morning. i couldn't sleep, my back was aching, my stomach felt empty and i just really wanted to eat something...anything.

you see, my roommate and i started a diet on monday. we are currently on day 3 and doing pretty well. though last night when i couldn't sleep(this is normal for me) and was feeling all those 'symptoms,' i couldn't help but to call myself an addict; addicted to food, to what the world tells me its ok to eat. its not ok. i was definitely feeling that at 3am this morning. but you know what? that didn't stop me from wanting to eat something with sugar in it. didn't stop me from wanting to munch on the first thing i could find.

the bible says that our bodies are the temple of god. then what the heck are we doing to our temples? i've been abusing mine, that's for sure. i wouldn't walk into my church building, sit on one of the chairs and start carving my name in wood, or wipe my nose in the upholstry. so why am i treating my personal temple so badly. addiction. its sin. i've been trying to live a life of holiness and falling from the fullness of it because of the way i have been treating myself, and the way i encourage others (not upfront, but by example) to treat themselves. its sin.

today the scale tells me that i am 3.5 pounds lighter. whether that is accurate or not is besides the point. my personal temple is getting some much needed fall cleaning. life cleaning. its striping itself of the addiction and fullness that society says is needed - and working towards a different kind of fullness. the kind that can only come from Christ Jesus.

i'm beating my addiction.

blessings.